So....
I guess it might be the last letter about my (our) monthiversary celebration.


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Because i don't want to write it periodically every month and spamming the Google+ timeline with my celebration of my (our) relationship.

And besides,

I think it's time to look forward.

I wanna make it as an officially ANNIVERSARY celebration, because sometimes i always lost the count........... Like now. and kindda tired to count from the first month.

and maybe you already get bored about our monthiversary

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But maybe half anniversary could be fine. *if i remember when the exact half anniv month is*


Let's just bear with it. lol 😂😁


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So happy............ *counting first. really* 16 monthiversary. 16th for the 16th times!!!!

MAKE A WISH POY!!😇

ahahaha

actually i wanted to say happy 1.4 year anniv during our chat earlier before we both went to sleep.

But maybe you didn't even realize that the date alr moving forward so you didn't say it. so i neither.

and you didn't even say it too in the morning, until i said it.😬

so yeah........

it's okay.😊

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i just feel like i haven't express much love for you lately.

Don't know. perhaps i was too busy (with my mind)? or i'm just trying so hard to not initiate cheesy convos as much as possible. HAHAHA

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But guess what

after all that we've been through, i still love you as much as i did few months ago and even it grows bigger.

Losing you, or even with the slightest thought of you cheating, is still my biggest nightmare.

Talking to you on brief phonecall or just on chat at the end of the day is still one thing i always look foward to (i mean the end of the day is night time (?) because on holidays, i sleep almost all the time, or you hanging around with your pals. so... we get a really good time before sleep).

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Spending "forever" with you is still on my top 5 life-goals list.

It sounds super cheesy HAHAHA *bodo amat* but i really mean every single word i write here.

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I admit that sometimes i might take you for granted, just because you've always been there for me.

that i often upset you with my words, deeds, annoying habits, etc.

and especially for my childish and naive thoughts.

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Thanks for staying through all this time tho. force me to re-thinking whenever i ask for breakups or resting relationship or distancing ourselves.
until yesterday maybe you already tired and asked me to say goodbye to your fams first. 😒

I feel really blessed to have you in my life.

You know, the feeling of having "perfect match"?

well, eventhough we're in a very opposite world, i'm sure we'll get over it soon anyway.

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So please bear with me a little longer.

I'll try to annoy you less lol

I know i'm still lacking in a lot of areas, but i'm determined to do better.

I don't know you will read this by today, but it's okay.

and this is a sacred letter so do not remind me of this. i know it's kindda funny to write like this.

but it's okay. i shallow my pride just for the sake of reminding you how much i love you, because i am awesome and SWEET. ( eventhough i often push you away in any possible way.)


Good night poy


Love,

Arnawatijow 😗💑💑💏👫

Did we grow together/
only to fall apart?//
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Did we let go/
only to search each other in everyone else?//

Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all.

People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit.

Love hurts.

Feelings are disturbing.

People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous.

How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel?

Pain is meant to wake us up.

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People try to hide their pain.

But they’re wrong.

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Pain is something to carry, like a radio.

You feel your strength in the experience of pain.

It’s all in how you carry it.

That’s what matters.

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Pain is a feeling. 

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Your feelings are a part of you.

Your own reality.

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If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality.

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You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

—Jim Morrison

Things happening again.//

Dear Santa Tjipoy the Tehebong,